you are the missing piece.

it's been more than a month, i think, when I decided to end what we had. Our relationship was almost perfect, I really thought, it would last, pero hindi ko kaya. Hindi ko kayang magsinungaling sa tatay ko that time. We wer oth hurt, lalo na ikaw, pero I was hurt as well. Still hurt. And it has been like, more than 3 weeks since you last texted me. the day I told you na wala na talaga. You know what? I am waiting for you to text me again. Everytime my phone beeps, my heart skips a beat, I don't know if Im going to open the meesage, cause it might be you. Pero nadidisappoint lang ako lagi, kasi no message from you. Hindi ko alam kung ano na nangyayari sayo, if ok ka lang or whatever, but I really hope na ok ka. I super miss you na, sobra. Hindi ako nanghihinayang dun sa boyfriend-girlfriend relationship natin, pero hinayang na hinayang ako sa friendship natin. I considered you as my bestfriend. You were there for me when no one else was. No matter how happy my day is, I always end up crying and thinking of you. itext mo naman na ako, kasi sobrang miss na miss na kita. Andakit na ng nararamdaman ko :( sasabog na ako.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend.

Here I go again. Typing these silly words. So what happened? actually, long story.

Things happened. Sad things. I was already moving on, then suddenly you'll say that you want me in your life again. I felt like a cheap girl when you said "hindi ko na kaya, magkita tayo", I was like, fvck, what does he think of me? ha? Iniwan mo then bigla mo nalang babalikan? seriously? O.o

Ngayon, nagiisip ako, iniisip ko kung pinagisipan ko ba yung sinabi kong ayaw ko na, oo, pinagisipan ko yun. Antagal kong pinagisipan. and it was a hard decision for me.

ayaw ko ng pahabain ko. All I want to say here is, It will be hard for me to accept na hindi ka na part ng life ko. Hindi naman masakit sakin yung fact na wala na tayo, na wala na tayong pagasa or something, ang masakit sakin, nwalan ako ng kaibigan, ng best friend, ng kausap lagi, nawala ka. Pero kailangan kasi e, ayaw na kitang saktan. Ayoko na. Kaya kailangan kong maging masama sayo. kailangan kong sabihin sayo yung mga bagay na yun para kamuhian mo ako ng sobra at para kalimutan mo ng mahal mo ako..