Here I go again. Typing these silly words. So what happened? actually, long story.
Things happened. Sad things. I was already moving on, then suddenly you'll say that you want me in your life again. I felt like a cheap girl when you said "hindi ko na kaya, magkita tayo", I was like, fvck, what does he think of me? ha? Iniwan mo then bigla mo nalang babalikan? seriously? O.o
Ngayon, nagiisip ako, iniisip ko kung pinagisipan ko ba yung sinabi kong ayaw ko na, oo, pinagisipan ko yun. Antagal kong pinagisipan. and it was a hard decision for me.
ayaw ko ng pahabain ko. All I want to say here is, It will be hard for me to accept na hindi ka na part ng life ko. Hindi naman masakit sakin yung fact na wala na tayo, na wala na tayong pagasa or something, ang masakit sakin, nwalan ako ng kaibigan, ng best friend, ng kausap lagi, nawala ka. Pero kailangan kasi e, ayaw na kitang saktan. Ayoko na. Kaya kailangan kong maging masama sayo. kailangan kong sabihin sayo yung mga bagay na yun para kamuhian mo ako ng sobra at para kalimutan mo ng mahal mo ako..
