before this day happened, I mean night, I talked to God and asked for a sign. I said, if Clarkson will be wearing his violet polo, he likes me, if he is wearing his violet polo shirt, it means he doesn't, but if he is wearing a black one, it means I am going to say what I feel for him. So that's it. before I woke up, I dreamt that he is wearing black. Then after I took a bath, I saw a reminder from my phone that It is the last day of our eng12. While I was taking the shower, wala na isip ko yun e, but when I saw the reminder, shit, nawasak puso ko dun. shitness! So ayun, like the old times, I laugh away my worries, I am super happy that day before eng12, my classmate was saying pa nga, "last day kasi" and I was like trying to ignore what they are saying. So eto na, english time. We went to our room earlier than the usual time kasi we were dismissed early. So ayun, before he arrived, I tried to laugh away my worries again, and then I saw him, my heart was broken into pieces, My world stopped. He was wearing BLACK! :((. So we entered the room and passed our final paper. Then we wrote something for our kulang kulang thing, he was there. And when I finished my work, I don't want to leave, I never want to leave the room, but I need to, I had my last glimpse of him, a glimpse of sadness, because I know I won't be able to see him anymore.
My term of kilig is now over, It was over since the time I opened the door and stepped out. I know, if its meant to be, it will. I guess,we were never meant to be. Thank you for being my inspiration kahit na hindi mo alam, and I wish you knew.
Now I know that it is hard to love someone who will never love you and I have learned that it is possible to say goodbye to someone who was never yours :(
I will always remember that someone named clarkson once tickled my heart and partially broke it.
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