missing piece

After a tiring day. I am here in front of my laptop again. Blogging this stupid shit .Typing words I don't even know if it has any sense. Well, my point is, I want to talk to him. It feels like I want to text him, and tell him, "hey, I'm in town" but I'm thinking what if he says "so what", or "that's good" and "so?". There's no reason for him to know I'm here. He doesn't even care. I think he already has a girlfriend, and why bother, right? And what's my reason to talk to him. But I want him to call me, right now, I wanna hear his voice, I wanna hear his laugh. I wanna end everything. I want to tell him everything I wanna say. I just want to end this. But how? :(