UNPLANNED MOMENTS

so it was a thursday(JUNE 23,2011) when it happened. HAHA. it was during our testing time, me, tanya, michael, giselle and zia were left in our room with MAMA TERRY, haha! We were waiting for zia to finish stuffs. Eh I'm not in the mood to go home pa and it was raining hard and I DONT HAVE AN UMBRELLA. HAHA :D nasira kasi.HAHA. So yun, I told them na magdinner muna kami, no one objected, so we went to the mall. Then Zia suggested na mag CHICKEN ALL YOU CAN kami sa max. so we rushed and everybody was excited. HAHA.

(ME,MICHAEL AND ZIA-----waiting for our chickens!)

So yun, super laughtrip, I was laughing so hard that time. Happiness. No one, as in zero of us thought about the rain while we were eating. Who cares? HAHA. JK.


(TOO MANY BONES! HAHA. ---after eating,joke.di pa pala)

I didnt get to have a picture of the bones after eating kasi kuya waiter was so shy to pose for us. Gusto ko kasi sana na kasama siya. HAHA :D

So when we left max and decided to go home, OMG, abot tuhod ang baha. What to do? HAHA. tanya said, stay and sleep in SM manila. G wants to go home, and ME, kahit ano! hAHA :D after so many talks and minutes had passsed, we decided to face the flood with icky plastics, cockroaches and rats and many more.


(FALCON DUCKLINGS.HAHA. OO, NAKUHA PA NAMIN MAGPICTURE)

So pagkarating sa underpass, we parted ways na. Zia and me were together. Akala ko tapos na, pero di pa pala. Ang hopeless ng rides. So we decided to walk, hanggang ESPANYA. kaloka! pero experience na yun. HAHA. feel namin ni Z na kasali kami sa AMAZING RACE. HAHA :D

WALA AKONG PINAGSISISIHAN SA ARAW NA YUN. NAGING MASAYA AKO, AT KASAMA KO MGA AMAZING FRIENDS KO :D. HAHA. UNPLANNED MOMENTS ARE THE BEST! SANA MAULIT ;p

pending question

I told myself, I'll never think of you anymore. But I really really want to know, Do you really love her more than me? Do you still love me? If I ask you to stay, will you not go? Do you still love me? Kasi ako, I am sure that I am in love with you, but I don't want to bother you anymore. SO I'll just shut up and let you love her.

Why our time never match? ( kunwaring poem. Haha)

9 years had passed since we first met in class. 
We were both under sir farinas
I think we were in the 4th row
And you tease me almost every hour

I hate being near you in class 
Cause you pissed me off so much
I remember always boxing you
Cause that's the only thing I can do

The next grade, i thought we'll be apart
But then I wasnt right
We're still in one section
And God knows how much I hate that

In our final year of our elementary life
Unfortunately, we're both under  st. Rose of lima
You're not yet tired of teasing me
And Im bored of your silly jokes

At last, high school came
And guess what, finally we're apart
I belong in the science section
And you're bitter to be in the general section

One day somebody told me a secret
A secret that was hidden for a long time
I was shocked when I heard it
And didnt believe them so I ignored it

Then suddenly, a message appeared in my phone
I asked who it was and you said it's you
I asked if the secret is true
You said yes and tried to prove it to me

There was no luck for you
Cause my heart beats for someone else
You tried again, and again and again
But I guess it's not your fate

  
I had relationship with others
And you also loved someone else too
I loved the guy but we're opposites
Girls loved you also, but you Ignored it

Christmas 2010 came, and we played a game
Whoever loses wins a prize
I was so sure that I will win
I lost, but you didn't get a prize

You showed me too much love
And I gave you a BIG NO
I'm afraid that I'll hurt you
Didn't think I already did

I was afraid to fall in love again
To get hurt and cry, I avoid
I told you it will never be US
So you'll disappear like a dust

While you're not here, I think.  
I guess, Im ready to love you
It's time to be mature
It' time to face my fear

I asked God a sign,
If you text me, I'll tell you
Before the day ended, you beeped me
But it's too late, it's not my fate

It broke my heart when I read the text
I was ready to take risk
But you already found someone else
Told me you love her more than me   

Why our time never match?
You love me, I love someone else
You love me, Im confused
I love you, but now you love her.
When will our time match?

 

 


 

Patricia says:

I started the day smiling because it was the game 6 of NBA finals. I was so eager to watch it and I ditched class just to finish the game. And it was worth it because Mavs won! Haha! 

Then at 12, jam fetched me and we went to trinoma, then pat followed. Random topics, and everything and lots  and lots and lots of walking. Then suddenly, I told her, na I want to have a boyfriend na, then she said, she wants na din. So open open about things in our life. Then suddenly ipinasok niya si A sa topic. She said na he's just there naman daw and bakit di ko daw itry na seryosohin siya. And she was like a pro talaga in giving advices. As in. i told her ayoko kasi he was so demanding in terms of time. Sabi ko I dont want someone who always want to see me and everything, but she said na it's normal lang daw and I should accept that. He again said what everyone told me na give him a chance. Na itry ko daw. 

I told her pa na I dont want someone who is under and someone na kayang kaya kong paikutin, na kahit gaano kataas pride ng lalaki, matataasan at matataasan ko yun. Then she said na sa umpisa lang yun, that sooner, they will change. Haaay!

Im so confused. I want the feeling of being in love na uli. Yung feeling na you're afraid of losing someone and you're valuing them so much. That you can do whatever you can for them. Haaay. But I just cant do it. Because im afraid. I dont want pain. I dont want tears. Pero nasasaktan parin ako ngayon. Ang hirap. Ang gulo ng buhay. 

Confuzzled.........

Ang gulo gulo ng nararamdaman ko. Nakakainis na. Nakapagtanong na ako kung kani kanino kung anong gagawin. And their answers are opposite to what I am doing. They all said na, why dont you give him a chance. Sabi nila, paano ko daw malalaman if masasaktan ako or whatever kung hindi ko itatry. I super want to try but something is pulling me back. Hindi ko alam kung ano yun. Super? Naguguluhan na nga ako e. Sinasabi ko sa sarili ko na kaya ko, na ready na ako, pero kapag andiyan na yung chance, I change my mind. Pakiramdam ko nakamove on na ako dun sa ex ko pero hindi nawala yung pain. Anong kailangan kong gawin para mawala yung fear? Gulong gulo na ako. 

Ayoko ng ganitong feeling, yung naiiyak ka ng walang dahilan, na bigla nalang bibigat yung pakiramdam mo. 

Pero honestly, everytime na uuwi ako dati sa vizcaya, during my idle times, si jon pumapasok sa isip ko, but now iba na, ansakit kasi napalitan yung misery ng ibang misery. Dapat happiness diba? Pero hindi e. Pero I know it's my fault naman e. I was the one who doesnt or was afraid to take risk. 

I just really dont know what to do. Im confuzzled. God. *sigh