I started the day smiling because it was the game 6 of NBA finals. I was so eager to watch it and I ditched class just to finish the game. And it was worth it because Mavs won! Haha!
Then at 12, jam fetched me and we went to trinoma, then pat followed. Random topics, and everything and lots and lots and lots of walking. Then suddenly, I told her, na I want to have a boyfriend na, then she said, she wants na din. So open open about things in our life. Then suddenly ipinasok niya si A sa topic. She said na he's just there naman daw and bakit di ko daw itry na seryosohin siya. And she was like a pro talaga in giving advices. As in. i told her ayoko kasi he was so demanding in terms of time. Sabi ko I dont want someone who always want to see me and everything, but she said na it's normal lang daw and I should accept that. He again said what everyone told me na give him a chance. Na itry ko daw.
I told her pa na I dont want someone who is under and someone na kayang kaya kong paikutin, na kahit gaano kataas pride ng lalaki, matataasan at matataasan ko yun. Then she said na sa umpisa lang yun, that sooner, they will change. Haaay!
Im so confused. I want the feeling of being in love na uli. Yung feeling na you're afraid of losing someone and you're valuing them so much. That you can do whatever you can for them. Haaay. But I just cant do it. Because im afraid. I dont want pain. I dont want tears. Pero nasasaktan parin ako ngayon. Ang hirap. Ang gulo ng buhay.
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