Thinking about the title? well that was a line that I made when our teacher asked us to pass a poem. Anyway, this will be about the title naman eh, not the poem.
Last night, we were drinking here in our house. I didn't expect na pupunta siya dito. I really didn't. Well it was a good night, not until Josh asked us(medyo may tama na kasi) kung virgin pa daw kame, then 2 boys answered, NO! and he was the other one. I just heard that, kaso di ko narinig yung ibang part ng story because Jeck(boyfriend ni pat) was telling me of his story(ang sad nga eh,napaiyak ako dun). Grabe, naturn Off talaga ako. Before that night, I was hoping and I'm ready to fix "us" again eh. Kaso when I heard that. Ayoko na. And meron pa, Josh asked again if we ever had Long distance relationships, siyempre, ako wala ako niyan, pero siya nagkaroon daw, marami pa. Napaisip ako kung those times na kame pa, or those times na he's still courting me, or the times na on off on off kame, what if may someone na pala siyang fliniflirt through text or whatever. I never borrowed his phone naman dati, and never akong naghinala na he's flirting with other woman. pero what if he was?! Hindi ako nanghihimasok sa buhay niya dati.
Then awhile ago, he texted and defended himself, saying na virgin pa siya and whatever. Then I asked Jayvee some advices, he said na I made the right decision na wag ng makipagbalikan sakanya. Kasi last night, when jayvee opened that i don't want him back to my life, ang sabe ba naman daw, it's ok, wala akong pake, marami pa naman kan iba. And jayvee told me na he has reserves!WTF right. What if kaya niya akong lokohin diba:?!
Siguro nga we're better if we're not together. Things wont work for us. But still, I love him. KAso di ko lang alam kung TAMA.
I don't know if that was really the answer. And i Thank God for that. Ang sakit ng loob ko. Ang bigat. Take the pain away. Please?!
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