ok lang ako

NP: Okay lang ako by Parokya ni Edgar..
"lahat ay aking gagawin
pikit matang tatanggapin
mas kayang masaktan paminsan-mnsan
'wag ka lamang mawala ng tuluyan..
...
..Kung merong magtanong tungkol sa akin
sabihin mo
ok lang ako, ok lang ako"

Read that from a friend's post! SHOOT! I immediately thought of someone A. Suddenly, ambigat ng pakiramdam ko. I don't know why. If there's a thermometer for the body to know if you have a fever or what, sana, there's a love-o-meter for the heart, so you can know if you are really inlove or whatever. So that you wont waste time thinking if you fell for someone or not. To know what is real. So that the mind and the heart would stop fighting.

The post reflects him so much. I remembered him saying he doesn't care if he'll be hurt, as long as he can prove to me that he loves me.

What does it mean if you think of a person during your idle moments? What does it mean when everytime you watch something with a guy and a girl, you remember him and suddenly, the what ifs appear.

If only I am not afraid of loving and showing my true feelings, I will choose you. because I know, that the feeling is real, and I know that I can entrust my heart to you. But I tried, you know that.

Sana alam niya kung anong tunay kong nararamdaman. Sana lang, kasi alam ko naman namisunderstood mo nanaman e. Minsan kasi, mas gugustuhin mo nalang igive up lahat, para lang makaless ka ng sakit sa ibang tao. Isipin mo, ngayon palang, na hindi naman masyado pinagsamahan namen, I got too attached. Ano pa kaya kapag tumagal pa diba? Hindi ko alam kung paano ko kakayanin yung ganun. Hirap ako sa mga ganitong bagay e. lalo na at wala akong mapagopenan. kasi kahit sa sarili ko, hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit ako nasasaktan. :(